Reflections of a long wait.

2 years ago, i sent off my hubby away to UK with a heavy heart. Lots of people must be wondering, why didn't i go with him? I can hear them saying , if i was you, i will be there with him. .. If it was only so easy... In the end, I made the decision to stay back in Singapore. Life is tough in UK, work was hard to find (given that my work was not specialised), the money earned by D would not be sufficient to reap any rewards.. instead we will end up spending up all for our food and enjoyment.

Well, supporting my husband's dream doesn't mean that i have to be by his side. If i was a hindrance, what support would i play then? Rather, I let him off to venture the world while i stay back to ensure that the home base will remains strong with me. With our goals kept in our heart, with both of us committing that this is what we chose to do, he left me......temporaily..

Here's some things we did to say connected the past 2 years...
1) Almost every weekend for was blocked for video conferencing each other(normally from 7pm to 12pm- Sat, Sun and Public holidays).
2)On weekdays- Mons to Fridays,...
a) it starts with every morning when i wake up , he will give me a wake up call (or vice versa) and i will say good night to him.
b) then at work, i will drop him an email for that day..
c) at 2.30pm , I will give him his wake up call (6.30am UK time)....we will chat abit..
d) and then i will wait for his email reply from work...
e) at around 7.30pm , i will give him a call during his lunch time to chit chat ..
f) and back home..we will email each other while he is working and me watching tv
g) i will read the email he sent the previous night and i will send him another email for him to read at home when he is back from work.....
h) finally before i sleep, another call to him say good night....

this is our weekend and weekday routine, the past 2 years. We stayed connected and committed this way.. we knew each other's mood every day, we knew what each other ate every day. we heard each other voices every day.. this is how we stayed connected...

Finally, my long wait is going to be over, in 16 hrs times, my hubby will finally be back home. With the home all sparkling, i await his return.. its like in the olden times:
a) when a swordsmen needs to leave his wife to roam the world to polish his fighting skills,
b)when a chinese scholar needs to go to the capital to sit for the imperial exams in order to obtain glory.

So this is how i felt about my husband's work trip to UK...without venturing, he will not go far, without venturing he would not be able to polish his skills, without venturing.. he may end up regretting missing that opportunity..

Haha.. so you can only imagine my joy now.. moments before my husband's return (btw, he is now in a taxi , on the way to London-Heatlhrow airport)..undescribable feelings of pride and joy.

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Deeper sentiments:

We had met early in our lifes,, before we had grown strong. So we stuck to each other, relying on each other's strengths to walk through our obsticles. We were like 2 creeper plants.. wrapping around each other in order to move up towards the sun. Was it love or reliance or habit? that we didn't know...

The time apart .. had made us grow independently, relying on our own strength to walk through our own obsticle. We had matured and strengthen our own characters and have grown up. Now, we are like two trees growing side by side, no longer relying on each other to reach the sun. We can lend our shelther to each other from time to time, but mostly, we just enjoy each other but no longer out of reliance or habit or need. Our roots runs deep beneth the soil, others may not be able to see, but we know how deep it goes.
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Reflections from a loving wife ;)