Friday, January 25, 2008
IS EVERYTHING IN LIFE FATED???
I was waiting at the bus terminal for my bus ride home ... doing nothing.. just looking blankly at the passing people and suddenly i had this tot and wonder is everything in life fated.
PART I: NOTHING IS BY CONCIDENCE
Eg.. On one occassion in my teens, I had planned to meet up a group of friends at the fun fair at bukit batok, I had board the bus from Toh Tuck.. and had rode all the way to Bukit batok.. but i couldn't see the fun fair nor my friend, dejected, i travelled back home... i wonder.. had i not missed that fun fair... what will happen???????
Another occassion, when we were driving to Dino's house in Perak with my parents... I suddenly had constipation (which is quite rare) at a rest area.. it was raining very heavily then.. i was in the toilet for close to 20-30mins..... then we drove again when i came out.. and 5-10 mins down the road, we saw a freak fatal accident which occured like few minutes before us.... the point is... i wonder.. had i not had the constipation... what will happen??????
Bring this concept up a notch... if it was fated that i was to see the freak accident, and get to feel that me having the constipation had averted an accident .. subsequently this experience had given me the awareness that life is not as simple as we think it is.. and for me to write this blog.. then this blog was meant to be too? haha...then if i didn't know Dino, then i won't be driving to his house in Perak, then i won't get to see the accident and won't get to write this blog? Get what i mean.. there is so many logics behind each incident in our life that nothing seems to be by concidence..... haha.
PART II: ITS NOT LIFE THAT MATTERS, BUT WHAT YOU LEARN OUT OF IT
If everything in life has already been planned out, and every decision i make is not really a decision but it was orginally planned for it to happen... hmm i am quite loss for words.. except that if you can't control your life since it is pre-set.. what is yours to control is what you learn out of it.
Eg,.. If walking from Pt A to Pt B is pre-set.. what is not preset is how you want to walk there, you can walk from Pt A enjoying the scenary or you can walk from Pt A complaining and grumbling all the way.
Hah... if you can understand the above, you will understand the meaning of my blog.......
PART III: RANDOM TOTS
In a lighter tone....Just random tots,,,...What will happen if i didn't go to USA? Will I still meet Dino this life?? How will we get to meet then if it was preset that we will be together??? I wonder....
Sunday, January 13, 2008
Hopes for 2008 and Reflections of 2007
Haha.. alittle belated but here are some things i want to do for 2008 and reflections of 2007.
2008:
1) Go to a place I never been to. (Haha.. attaining this soon... coz going to China)
2) Cook up a Popiah party for my family. (Like having family gatherings at home, rather than to spend $$ to go out for a meal)
3) Take up a course (likely to try to get a driving license..)
4) To keep my house neat and nice (from inside out.. haha..difficult task.. but i will try)
5) Try to organise a family trip (Likely Penang... or maybe Txxxxx ;) )
6) Work- Would be a busy year, but I plan to keep it simple, finish the projects assigned and stay in low profile.
7) Cook a few meals a week for my hubby.
8) Be on a healthy lifestyle plan with hubby (Try to eat healthy and work out regularly)
9) Buy some nice english karaokie songs for my parents.. so that i can also have some songs to sing along when there is a karaokie session at their house.
10)...keep the last one a secret!!! for ppl who know me.. no need for me to say, you will also know what it is.
Things that I have achieved in 2007:
1) Being independant!!!!!!! (This time was the longest time apart from D.. so sad and lonely)
2) Went London and enjoyed myself. This trip I really coz it was planned by D. We went to harrods for the experience too.. their cheese cake is super delicious.. had my first krispy cream donut there, my first taste of parma ham, my first trip to a castle, my first time setting eyes on crown jewels.. hehe. it was a great eye opener.
3) Work- super challenging work.. having to work with external org (its like hitting my head with a brick wall each time i due with them)..but finally it was implemented.
4) Increase my Community Chest donation.. haha.. (regardless where the money went, i felt i did a part for the needys)..
5) Maintain the Fish aquarium and took care of the fish when it turned crazziee (never knew that that fish can turn crazziee.. think it got depression coz too long never see its master already)..phew.. can't wait to hand back this responsiblity to D.
Thing I was most disgusted with myself in 2007:
1) idiotic email episode..still suffering panic attacks from this so i have to block my mind off this incident. (lesson learnt, don't get involved in other's gossip or email.)
Major event impacting my life 4ever:
1) Demise of Father-in-Law. My view of life and death changed alot after it.
Saving the best for last!!!! Best Achievement award ...
1) No more outstanding bills!!!!
(less the car loan and housing loan and monthly giro deductions -income tax...tv license... etc etc.. haha...)
Anyway, my hope for 2008 is that the world will be peaceful and calm. Economy maintains its growth. Family and friends, all healthy and happy!!!!!!
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What is wealth without happiness? What is happiness without health? What is wealth without health? So appreciate your life with what you earn and what you achieve, while you and your love ones are as fit as a fiddle. Don't hold back your love.. thinking that there is always a tomorrow for you to do it.
2008:
1) Go to a place I never been to. (Haha.. attaining this soon... coz going to China)
2) Cook up a Popiah party for my family. (Like having family gatherings at home, rather than to spend $$ to go out for a meal)
3) Take up a course (likely to try to get a driving license..)
4) To keep my house neat and nice (from inside out.. haha..difficult task.. but i will try)
5) Try to organise a family trip (Likely Penang... or maybe Txxxxx ;) )
6) Work- Would be a busy year, but I plan to keep it simple, finish the projects assigned and stay in low profile.
7) Cook a few meals a week for my hubby.
8) Be on a healthy lifestyle plan with hubby (Try to eat healthy and work out regularly)
9) Buy some nice english karaokie songs for my parents.. so that i can also have some songs to sing along when there is a karaokie session at their house.
10)...keep the last one a secret!!! for ppl who know me.. no need for me to say, you will also know what it is.
Things that I have achieved in 2007:
1) Being independant!!!!!!! (This time was the longest time apart from D.. so sad and lonely)
2) Went London and enjoyed myself. This trip I really coz it was planned by D. We went to harrods for the experience too.. their cheese cake is super delicious.. had my first krispy cream donut there, my first taste of parma ham, my first trip to a castle, my first time setting eyes on crown jewels.. hehe. it was a great eye opener.
3) Work- super challenging work.. having to work with external org (its like hitting my head with a brick wall each time i due with them)..but finally it was implemented.
4) Increase my Community Chest donation.. haha.. (regardless where the money went, i felt i did a part for the needys)..
5) Maintain the Fish aquarium and took care of the fish when it turned crazziee (never knew that that fish can turn crazziee.. think it got depression coz too long never see its master already)..phew.. can't wait to hand back this responsiblity to D.
Thing I was most disgusted with myself in 2007:
1) idiotic email episode..still suffering panic attacks from this so i have to block my mind off this incident. (lesson learnt, don't get involved in other's gossip or email.)
Major event impacting my life 4ever:
1) Demise of Father-in-Law. My view of life and death changed alot after it.
Saving the best for last!!!! Best Achievement award ...
1) No more outstanding bills!!!!
(less the car loan and housing loan and monthly giro deductions -income tax...tv license... etc etc.. haha...)
Anyway, my hope for 2008 is that the world will be peaceful and calm. Economy maintains its growth. Family and friends, all healthy and happy!!!!!!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
What is wealth without happiness? What is happiness without health? What is wealth without health? So appreciate your life with what you earn and what you achieve, while you and your love ones are as fit as a fiddle. Don't hold back your love.. thinking that there is always a tomorrow for you to do it.
Monday, January 7, 2008
Lost in translation
Sometimes we say things which may hurt another indirectly and the hurt inflicted is unnecessary as it wasn't meant to be interpretated in that way in the first place. This is what i mean by lost in translation.
My gal friend said to me this many years later .. that she use to detest me when we were studying in secondary school... cause i was sacastic and had hurt her feelings. After i found out about it, i was quite sad.. cause a harmless remark (I don't even know what i said) had cause her to feel bad. I felt bad being someone to cause one pain.
What i want to say is that sometimes the ones were tend to hurt are the ones who love us the most as they put what we say to heart. If we are not important to them, they won't even bother about what we say. Its because we are important, its because we matter to them, that what we say penetrates to their heart.
So thats why i feel that we must be very careful of our speech to the ones we love, we must treat them with love, respect and tenderness. Coz what we say matters.
Felt sad that sometimes the things we say would make our love one feel bad and lousy and guilty. Rather than inflicting hurt, i want to be one who will bring joy and smiles to my love ones.
Power of speech.. use it probably and it will bring harmony and peace, use it wrongly, and it would cause much sadness and pain.
My gal friend said to me this many years later .. that she use to detest me when we were studying in secondary school... cause i was sacastic and had hurt her feelings. After i found out about it, i was quite sad.. cause a harmless remark (I don't even know what i said) had cause her to feel bad. I felt bad being someone to cause one pain.
What i want to say is that sometimes the ones were tend to hurt are the ones who love us the most as they put what we say to heart. If we are not important to them, they won't even bother about what we say. Its because we are important, its because we matter to them, that what we say penetrates to their heart.
So thats why i feel that we must be very careful of our speech to the ones we love, we must treat them with love, respect and tenderness. Coz what we say matters.
Felt sad that sometimes the things we say would make our love one feel bad and lousy and guilty. Rather than inflicting hurt, i want to be one who will bring joy and smiles to my love ones.
Power of speech.. use it probably and it will bring harmony and peace, use it wrongly, and it would cause much sadness and pain.
Friday, January 4, 2008
Seemingly Meaningless Things
Why does one get entangled with seemingly meaningless things.
Somethings i wonder, why is it so important to look good or impress people when you don't even bother to look within. What's so great about an apple which looks good outside but is rotten inside. I see these people as being lame.
If you rot inside, why bother .. why bother at all to pretend to be a good soul .... isnt it meaningless.. since everyone who "knows" you.... knows you already.
If you don't even bother to make any effort, if you are not consistent in your actions, then don't bother at all. Its just lame.
So back to my first sentance... being entangled in seemingly meaningless things is to pretend to be someone who you are not, is to waste time to create a faux image of yourself... so in that sense.. isn't it meaningless ..haha
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I really wonder sometimes.. does everyone has some inner thoughts.. Mine inner thoughts are mostly happy thoughts.. which helps to guide my mind to peace and happiness but .. i worry for those whose thoughts are otherwise..probably it is this group of people who may go into desperation , delusion and destruction....
Somethings i wonder, why is it so important to look good or impress people when you don't even bother to look within. What's so great about an apple which looks good outside but is rotten inside. I see these people as being lame.
If you rot inside, why bother .. why bother at all to pretend to be a good soul .... isnt it meaningless.. since everyone who "knows" you.... knows you already.
If you don't even bother to make any effort, if you are not consistent in your actions, then don't bother at all. Its just lame.
So back to my first sentance... being entangled in seemingly meaningless things is to pretend to be someone who you are not, is to waste time to create a faux image of yourself... so in that sense.. isn't it meaningless ..haha
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I really wonder sometimes.. does everyone has some inner thoughts.. Mine inner thoughts are mostly happy thoughts.. which helps to guide my mind to peace and happiness but .. i worry for those whose thoughts are otherwise..probably it is this group of people who may go into desperation , delusion and destruction....
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